G1lius' Road to Triplenova

Yeah, I haven't updated since some time, but a very happy new year for all of you.

My pokergoal for this year was to get supernova before the end of February, but since the VPP/hand are lower then before, and I'm likely not going to get 70k+ hands in I already doubt I'm going to make it.

Either way, as you may have noticed in the blogs since 2 months ago is that something annoyed me. Right now I'm comfortable enough to talk about it since I can look at it pretty objectively.
About 5 or 6 years ago my mother dated someone who had three kids of his own. Long story short is that I got pretty close with the two daughters and considered them really good friends. I don't have any brothers or sisters myself, so I can't compare, but the bond was pretty strong I thought.
It's likely been going on for longer, but since a month ago I realized that I had feelings for the youngest one (she's almost 8 years younger then me). Since I really valued the friendship a lot and was pretty confident she wasn't interested in me that way anyhow, I was kinda mad at myself, trying to make it undone but I didn't have a clue how to do it. I made myself a little depressed at the time. I looked for help in the best person for the job (technically), which is her sister, because she understands how deep the friendship goes and how she's going to react. Practically though, it's still her sister, and you shouldn't tell girls you're in love with their sister and expect them to keep it a secret.
Which she didn't of course.
However, ever since I found out she told her she's been ignoring me. I don't blame her telling her sister, however I do blame her for dropping me when I kinda need it the most.
The youngest one is actually more supportive, although a bit uncomfortable, but that's impossible not to be I'd say. I do think once my brain starts being 100% normal again we can go on just like before. At least I hope so.
Either way, I found a couple of things that really help. It drove me mad at first, but now I'm seeing results and I feel like I'm "healing".