G1lius' Road to Triplenova

Yes, I know. It's been too long since I updated my blog.
Reason being: I got nothing to blog about. I still haven't played this month, with the exception of a small 2k hands.
I don't want to think about it too much. I might not go for triplenova anymore. Not really sure.

I am making some effort into the future Belgian gamblinglaw. I'm writing to some politicians, getting some information etc.
I could be doing a lot more, but I don't feel like I'm the person to take the lead here. I don't mind doing some things on my own, but I don't want to have the pressure of people counting on me to do it, and to do it right. I believe there are better persons for that job out there.

Anyway...
Since I'm not playing, I don't have a lot to say. I will be updating on the Belgian law, if we make some progress.

Peace out

Yes, I know. It's been too long since I updated my blog.
Reason being: I got nothing to blog about. I still haven't played this month, with the exception of a small 2k hands.
I don't want to think about it too much. I might not go for triplenova anymore. Not really sure.

I am making some effort into the future Belgian gamblinglaw. I'm writing to some politicians, getting some information etc.
I could be doing a lot more, but I don't feel like I'm the person to take the lead here. I don't mind doing some things on my own, but I don't want to have the pressure of people counting on me to do it, and to do it right. I believe there are better persons for that job out there.

Anyway...
Since I'm not playing, I don't have a lot to say. I will be updating on the Belgian law, if we make some progress.

Peace out

It's just one of those days

No, just making a post to say I'm still on a break. I played like 500 hands or something this month.
I wanted to play a session, but the tables where just too bad. Even Zzeigler was down to 10/20. So instead I'm making this blogpost.
It feels pretty good right now. Although the badrun is still somewhere in my mind, I don't think it'll get to me.
Although I don't like the fact I'm "losing" hands, my mindset is just way more important then my hands.

I'm also trying to get some things going for the upcoming regulations about poker in Belgium. Trying to contact people for it. It seems like getting in contact with a pokerclient is the hardest part. Political parties seem pretty open about it, although I haven't suggested any specific things yet. Right now I'm trying to get an idea where we should be going. I'll prolly make a specific post about all that once I actually get somewhere.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_BAHdBHfJw&feature=related

I love that song for so many reasons. The text is pretty motivating, it's a nostalgic song, I grew up with this kinda music, and it's a nice beat, very good for running, I always use it on my walkman (the brand, not the old cassette thing) while running.

Anyhow, my point being, there's no point in looking behind, you can only change the future.

Yesterday I played one small session, and didn't play again because I was up, and I was happy about that. Only shows I'm not ready to play yet.
Today was just not the day to grind. It was 37°C outside in the shadow, warmest day of the year. Right now it's getting better and although I could play, and I actually want to play for a bit, I'm not going to. The longer the break the more I'll long for playing again I guess.

I will be reviewing my own sessions again this month. Something I haven't done in a while. If I really want to be better I'll have to work on it. Not just putting in the hands and thinking on the spot, but do some thinking later. Most highstakes pro's do it, so it'll be stupid to assume I don't need to do that.
If I find a microphone that actually works (the one on my laptop is so crappy you can't understand a word I'm saying) I'll try to give comments on my own game and record it. I'm more focussed and 'into' it if I'm actually doing it for "others" instead of just going over my session and view everything.
I'll likely release them on some dutchspeaking fora. Maybe not if there's too much questioning around it, but if I'm making it anyway, I might as well release it for other people to enjoy.

Once the temperature is somewhat decent I'll try and put the hours in as well. In summertime there's usually little work, so I'll be home pretty quickly from work normally.

I think I can say it's a pretty bad month

A lot of things have crossed my mind. I thought about quiting, taking a break, getting the going pro thing out of my head, etc.
I haven't made up my mind yet.

Some things I have realized:
- 400BB downswings are very likely to happen to 1BB/100 winners. And I might not even be a 1BB/100 winner.
- You need to put in a big amount of hands once you go pro. Variance can be very sick (400BB is nothing compared to wost case scenarios), so you just need a lot of hands to get into somewhat of a long run. Which basically means going pro = going for supernova elite
- I still have no clue about my real skill-level.
- I can not get 50k profit this year, unless I go for quatronova and get 20k$ in winnings. (which is from now, because I'm basically breakeven for the year atm)

I don't know what I'm going to do yet. I will continue to play, and go for triplenova. How to continue after that, I don't know.
I do remember Randy Pausch's words: The brick walls aren't there to stop us, they're there to let us show how badly we want something. They're there to stop the other people who don't want it enough.
However, I'm behind schedule for triplenova, and struggling to get things done, so it might be too impulsive to just say "hey, I'll go for quatronova".

I am not going to play unless I feel ready for it. I played some today with a very bad mindset. The mindset of "I really don't want to see another beat" and "I'm prolly getting outdrawn here again".
There's no reason for me to start playing if I have that in mind.
I don't know how long it's going to take. I might be grinding away tomorrow or be close to august before I start again. Can't tell.
The going pro in 2011 is pretty far away in my head right now. I'd say there's like a 10% chance, maybe even less.

I am currently at 135k VPP's, so 15k short for triplenova-pace.
Over the year I am up a whopping $222