G1lius' Road to Triplenova

I think I am.
Which is pretty weird, because I'm likely one of the quietest persons you'll ever meet, if you do.
People that really, REALLY know me describe me as (very) assertive. People that only know me online likely do too, since I'm pretty outspoken when I got an opinion on something.
Introverted and assertive don't mix too often, but I guess it's possible, but then again, last night I went out wearing the pokerstars baret kinda hat (ps branding taken off) and a red and black striped pants (like this one http://stealherstyle.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/06/cher-lloyd-motel-red-black.jpg but for men) which is pretty 'out there'. I'm also writing this blogpost, actually crossposting it since my blogspot still ends up high on google, so that all seems pretty attentionwhore-like, which is kinda the definition of extraverted I guess.
I'm just a weird person I guess.

Anyway, I marked a couple of hands in my sessions lately, and the only time I come around to reviewing them is when I blog about it, so here we go.

(sorry 'bout the []'s)

[b]PokerStars - $3/$6 (6 max) - Holdem - 5 players[/b]

SB posts SB $1.00, BB posts BB $3.00

[b]Pre Flop:[/b] [i]($4.00)[/i] [b]Hero[/b] has 8:diamond: 8:heart:

[b]UTG[/b] calls $3.00, [color=red][b]Hero[/b] raises to $6.00[/color], [color=red]BTN raises to $9.00[/color], SB calls $8.00, [i]fold[/i], [b]UTG[/b] calls $6.00, [b]Hero[/b] calls $3.00
UTG and BTN are fishy unknowns, SB is decent over the small history I got with him.

[b]Flop:[/b] [i]($39.00, 4 players)[/i] 2:heart: 2:club: 8:club:
SB checks, [color=red][b]UTG[/b] bets $3.00[/color], [b]Hero[/b] calls $3.00, BTN calls $3.00, SB calls $3.00
This is pretty standard, trying to keep the other players in the pot.

[b]Turn:[/b] [i]($51.00, 4 players)[/i] 4:club:
SB checks, [color=red][b]UTG[/b] bets $6.00[/color], [b]Hero[/b] calls $6.00, BTN calls $6.00, [i]fold[/i]
This is the tough spot. UTG might have donked a flushdraw which got there, so I might be getting more action from him. There are still 2 players to act behind me though, do I really want to chase them out with the one-card flushdraw they might have? On the other hand, they might fold, and a river flushcard might scare UTG to bet his 2/8/pair, losing me a decent amount of bets. Also the A high flushdraw might call 2 bets on the turn anyway (and prolly should).

[b]River:[/b] [i]($69.00, 3 players)[/i] Q:heart:
[b]UTG[/b] checks, [color=red][b]Hero[/b] bets $6.00[/color], [i]fold[/i], [b]UTG[/b] calls $6.00
Cursed when utg checked, smiled when he showed his hand though.
Flopping the nuts and only getting 1 bet in on each street feels very weird and I really doubt my turnplay. As it turns out I prolly didn't lose any value, but we can't be result oriented.

[spoiler][b]Hero[/b] shows 8:diamond: 8:heart: (Full House, Eights full of Twos) (Pre 82%, Flop 100%, Turn 100%)
[b]UTG[/b] mucks 3:club: 3:heart: (Two Pair, Threes and Twos) (Pre 18%, Flop 0%, Turn 0%)
[b]Hero[/b] wins $78.57[/spoiler]



[b]PokerStars - $3/$6 (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players[/b]

[b]Pre Flop:[/b] [i]($4.00)[/i] [b]Hero[/b] has K:club: A:heart:

[i]fold[/i], [i]fold[/i], [color=red][b]CO[/b] raises to $6.00[/color], [color=red][b]Hero[/b] raises to $9.00[/color], [i]fold[/i], [i]fold[/i], [b]CO[/b] calls $3.00

CO is a decent player. Standard play.

[b]Flop:[/b] [i]($22.00, 2 players)[/i] 8:club: K:diamond: T:club:
[b]CO[/b] checks, [color=red][b]Hero[/b] bets $3.00[/color], [color=red][b]CO[/b] raises to $6.00[/color], [b]Hero[/b] calls $3.00

call with intention to raise turn

[b]Turn:[/b] [i]($34.00, 2 players)[/i] J:spade:
[color=red][b]CO[/b] bets $6.00[/color], [b]Hero[/b] calls $6.00

pretty bad card, it made some straight draws and two pairs. I still have outs to improve so raise/folding isn't an option. If he has a draw he's might bluff the river anyway.

[b]River:[/b] [i]($46.00, 2 players)[/i] T:heart:
[color=red][b]CO[/b] bets $6.00[/color], [color=red][b]Hero[/b] raises to $12.00[/color], [b]CO[/b] calls $6.00
Here I raise with intend to fold if I get 3bet. The more I think about it though, the more I dislike it. He can have K8 ,9,Q. but also a lot 2 pair hands and the straight. Although a lot of player would check a T on the turn, it's surely still in his range.

[spoiler][b]Hero[/b] shows K:club: A:heart: (Two Pair, Kings and Tens) (Pre 65%, Flop 73%, Turn 80%)
[b]CO[/b] mucks J:diamond: Q:club: (Two Pair, Jacks and Tens) (Pre 35%, Flop 27%, Turn 20%)
[b]Hero[/b] wins $67.90
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[b]PokerStars - $3/$6 (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players[/b]

[b]Pre Flop:[/b] [i]($4.00)[/i] [b]Hero[/b] has T:heart: T:spade:

[i]fold[/i], [i]fold[/i], [i]fold[/i], [color=red][b]BTN[/b] raises to $6.00[/color], [color=red][b]Hero[/b] raises to $9.00[/color], [color=red][b]BB[/b] raises to $12.00[/color], [b]BTN[/b] calls $6.00, [b]Hero[/b] calls $3.00

BTN is solid player, BB is fishy.

[b]Flop:[/b] [i]($36.00, 3 players)[/i] T:diamond: 6:spade: K:club:
[b]Hero[/b] checks, [color=red][b]BB[/b] bets $3.00[/color], [b]BTN[/b] calls $3.00, [color=red][b]Hero[/b] raises to $6.00[/color], [color=red][b]BB[/b] raises to $9.00[/color], [b]BTN[/b] calls $6.00, [color=red][b]Hero[/b] raises to $12.00[/color], [b]BB[/b] calls $3.00, [b]BTN[/b] calls $3.00

[b]Turn:[/b] [i]($72.00, 3 players)[/i] 2:club:
[color=red][b]Hero[/b] bets $6.00[/color], [b]BB[/b] calls $6.00, [b]BTN[/b] calls $6.00

[b]River:[/b] [i]($90.00, 3 players)[/i] 9:diamond:
[color=red][b]Hero[/b] bets $6.00[/color], [b]BB[/b] calls $6.00, [color=red][b]BTN[/b] raises to $12.00[/color], [i]fold[/i], [b]BB[/b] calls $6.00
I'm wondering if this is a spot to check/call or fold. It is very dodgy though. QJ is a very likely hand in BTN's range because there aren't a lot of combos left. With him calling the flop, I actually don't see any other hands really... So yeah, this is a good spot to check. BB is often going to bet his AK or AA so I can check/fold if btn 3-bets. If BB checks I just have to call since the pot is so big though.

[spoiler][b]BTN[/b] shows Q:spade: J:spade: (Straight, King High) (Pre 17%, Flop 28%, Turn 14%)
[b]BB[/b] shows A:heart: A:club: (One Pair, Aces) (Pre 83%, Flop 72%, Turn 86%)
[b]BTN[/b] wins $117.00
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A couple of days ago I played against someone who I later thought subscribed to a pokerforum I'm at. I thought he might have looked me up, so I googled myself to see how high this pokerforum came up. It came up on the first page so it would've been possible.
One thing I did notice was how high this blog came up. I pretty much stopped using it and blogged on pokerclub.be

Being the attentionwhore that I am I figured I should double post from now on, so anyone who's looking for me can become a G1lius fanboy!

Also check out my twitter in the sidebar! Limit hold'em hands a volenté.

I know, it's been a long.
Reason for it is getting sick for the billionth time this winter, starcraft and other more fun things.
I still love the game of poker, but playing isn't that great anymore. The swings, the insecurity, the tilt, ... It's not all that appealing.
I'm at this stage in my "pokercarrier" where I know I lack the work-attitude to become really good, and I don't really make a lot of progress in my game. I confident that I can still beat 5/10 6-max, and you can make a decent amount there. However, money has never been a motivation for me. I'm looking out to buy a house, so the extra money would be welcome, but somehow that's very abstract in my brain.
It's stupid to have this skill and not do anything with it. Every time I write stuff like this I get pumped up and I think "let's grind my ass off from now on", but when I actually need to do that, I find excuses.
Just like I planned on running at least twice a weak, doing pushups 3 times a weak, etc.
Since I'm kinda failing and don't really have any goals atm, I find very little motivation to keep this blog up. However, it's a great tool to help and motivate you when you do have goals.
Other reasons for the lack of play is tiredness and emotional instability, which often go hand in hand. Tired because I have to wake up at 4 in the morning for work, and emotional unstable because the stuff with my girly friend that still bothers me.
I need to play at least 8k hands this month, because in april we might see the launch of pokerstars.be, which means I can't use cashbonuses. If I play 8k hands I'll have enough fpp's to get my 4k bonus and after that I'm prolly going to move to full tilt and/or others.
I hope I'll play a lot more, but my mindset has to change for it, and I don't know how.
Maybe I'll just go to bed at 20.00, and really try to be 'semi-professional'. However, once I have to move to FTP and others, traffic will be even smaller as now during the European afternoon.
We'll see. I'm just making this blogpost to say I'm still alive.
If anyone wants to see a blogpost about something particular, feel free to contact me. I'd be very happy to try and do something with it.

So yeah, I got a cold once again. 2nd time this winter.
I'm getting better at the moment. It's going pretty good with my other struggle too.
I do need a lot of sleep, and since I normally only play in the evenings, I didn't play yesterday, and likely not going to play today.
I did have a good session the day before yesterday, although I didn't play my A-game I feel. I did ended up 1k+, and that's been a loooong looong time ago since I had one of those.
I shouldn't stare at the results though, and realize that I actually shouldn't be playing too much unless the games are really good at the moment. I'm too tired to play my A-game.
This Friday I don't have to work, so I hope I'm back in good health by then I can grind some 6-max during the day, and masstable FR during the evening to make up for the days I didn't play.
My goal of making supernova before march is not really going all that well. I hope I can do some grind-days, and really do some massive volume.
This with hopefully a winrate.

Going to watch the BBC doc. "What is reality". Should be good I heard. After that, it's bedtime.

Yeah, I haven't updated since some time, but a very happy new year for all of you.

My pokergoal for this year was to get supernova before the end of February, but since the VPP/hand are lower then before, and I'm likely not going to get 70k+ hands in I already doubt I'm going to make it.

Either way, as you may have noticed in the blogs since 2 months ago is that something annoyed me. Right now I'm comfortable enough to talk about it since I can look at it pretty objectively.
About 5 or 6 years ago my mother dated someone who had three kids of his own. Long story short is that I got pretty close with the two daughters and considered them really good friends. I don't have any brothers or sisters myself, so I can't compare, but the bond was pretty strong I thought.
It's likely been going on for longer, but since a month ago I realized that I had feelings for the youngest one (she's almost 8 years younger then me). Since I really valued the friendship a lot and was pretty confident she wasn't interested in me that way anyhow, I was kinda mad at myself, trying to make it undone but I didn't have a clue how to do it. I made myself a little depressed at the time. I looked for help in the best person for the job (technically), which is her sister, because she understands how deep the friendship goes and how she's going to react. Practically though, it's still her sister, and you shouldn't tell girls you're in love with their sister and expect them to keep it a secret.
Which she didn't of course.
However, ever since I found out she told her she's been ignoring me. I don't blame her telling her sister, however I do blame her for dropping me when I kinda need it the most.
The youngest one is actually more supportive, although a bit uncomfortable, but that's impossible not to be I'd say. I do think once my brain starts being 100% normal again we can go on just like before. At least I hope so.
Either way, I found a couple of things that really help. It drove me mad at first, but now I'm seeing results and I feel like I'm "healing".

200000 vpp x 3.5 = 700 000 fpp
700k fpp x 0.016 = 11200$
stellar bonus: 1000$
Supernova bonus: 200$
doublenova bonus: 2600$
quarterly freeroll winnings: +/- 1700$
reload bonus: 650$
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17 350$
- +/- 700$ mtt-spew
- 5440$ loss
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11 910$

Hope 2011 will be a better year. I'll do my very best to make it happen.

Since people like graphs I'm posting my rollercoaster graph of today.

Today I played 3k hands. Might be the most ever.
10k vpp's to go. After next session I'll only have a 4 figure number to go :)

Graph of today:

It seems like the national law might be ready around the start of the new year, so it's really interesting what will happen the next couple of weeks.
As for my mental state, still the same thing, although it's getting a bit better...

So this weekend I tried to make up for the slacking.
sort or less worked.
I feel like I'm getting a lot of bad beats, so it's likely variance. I'm not really sure how much my mental state affects my game. I feel like I'm making good decisions, but you never really know if something affects you or not.

Either way, this is my graph since Friday:

15.7k vpp's to go.

It's been a while, so I'll make another blogpost.
I need to play a lot, but I haven't. There are reasons for that, but I don't want to talk about that.
I'm too close to doublenova however to just leave it to that.
It's 2.6k$ extra if you hit doublenova, so it would be stupid not to force it.
I need 21k vpp's. So that's about 22.6k hands at 5/10 FR, so 3.5k$ rake.
I get 73.5k fpp's for that, so that's 1176$ for that. So I get 3.7k$ for 3.5k rake. That's more then 100% rakeback from this point to doublenova.

Went to see Papa Roach and Disturbed last Sunday in Forest national. Pretty awesome, although Papa Roach saved their classics for last, so I didn't know the majority of the songs.

20$ for anyone that can find me! (I didn't find myself, so I wouldn't bother :p)

EDIT: oh yeah, there's actually a funny story to it. Oh well, funny...
So I went to Forest in Brussels, but apparently you need to take one more train from Brussels south, to Forest. I didn't know that, so when I looked up the train schedule I searched for Brussels south, not Forest.
Long story short, I missed my train.
The two girls I went with (yeah, I went with two girls, I'm such a player) both study in Leuven, so I went with them, sleeping at one's dorm.
I had to work at 4.20h, so there was no way I could make that since the first train leaves at 6.00h or something. So I woke up at 4.15h, calling them 8 times between then and 5.00h. Nobody answered the phone. I said "fuck them" and went to sleep again. At 5.45h I finally received a phonecall to ask where I was. I did my story and they said there where 3 sick people calling in today, and I needed to get there as soon as possible. So I stumbled out of the dorm, took the 20 minute walk to the train station, just to miss the first train. I drove to Antwerp-Berchem my car Sunday, because otherwise I wouldn't have made it anyway. So after a 40 minute wait at the train station, a 1.30h train ride and a 35 minute car ride I arrived at my work at 9.00h. I didn't have any working clothes, so I borrowed some shoes that stood some chance in the snow, and a jacket so people wouldn't mistake me for some sweat/beer stinking bum.
I've had better days.
I guess it was worth it though.